I never realized before that being shy and afraid to love someone is rude and selfish- to say the least. Jane's always been afraid of giving herself- she doesn't want to bother the other person, she's felt annoying and so much like she had nothing to offer that people would DISlike it if she tried to give what she did have. She thought this was sadly directed inward and only hurt herself.
But imagine if you were Jane's friend or parent or sibling or date and all you wanted to do is love her but she doesn't lover herself enough to let you. If you wanted to make her laugh but she's too embarrassed by the sound of her own voice to reward you with it. She feels too goofy to relax and have fun with you.
When Jane loves someone...
some of the greatest things in the world are when her neice talks about school and boys, when her sister in law laughs at her funnies, when the guy she likes holds her hand, when her mom spends the afternoon in conversation with her. But Jane has been too afraid to give these things back. People would be bored by her stories, she doesn't want to take your time, or bother yo with the touch of her hand.
HOW RIDICULOUS!!!!
Saying this, I dont' even feel the fear and self disapproval. It doesn't make sense!!! It makes me want to laugh and sing. It's not nice to assume you don't like me? Who'd-a-thunk it!?
2 comments:
Amen. What a great epiphany to have. Congratulations! This could prove very fruitful for you!
I'm happy you have found your self. You are a wonderful person and I have always admired you. I think you are a loving, kind and caring friend and I'm glad you know it too!!
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