Wednesday, June 15, 2005

I've got a secret...

My question today is can you really love someone and have secrets from them? I'm not talking about keeping a journal that you don't want them to read, more just for the sake of letting your thoughts go than that you are keeping something from them. And I"m not talking about hiding an alternate lifestyle/personality. I just wonder if you can love someone enough to say you want to be with them forever but not tell them everything about you. It seems to me you couldn't. That if you truly wanted to share your existence with them, you would want and need them to understand even your sad and bad and ugly times- however in the past they might be. And, if you really expect them to love you, keeping something from them because you're afraid they won't want to love you in spite of it, isn't being truly honest.

Wednesday, June 08, 2005

Checking in (or out?)

I want to run away. To be somewhere calm and quiet where people can't depend on me for a day or two. Somewhere where the only person I have to answer to is me. I need some time with me. I'm searching for some clarity, motivation, perhaps change. Definitely looking for something stable. At least for a day or two.