Comfort in the Blogosphere

I am determined to get back to blogs. I have spent some time on facebook and it's SO impersonal. I reconnected with a few people I really missed, but I've lost those of you here that really count :) And, Emily, didn't you once send me your facebook? and I couldn't get on at work or something? Well, now I'm there and not even finding you yet! So, what's the point? It's also got me friending people who are rude to me or to each other through me. What's up with that!? So, I want to avoid it a bit for a while. And I really miss the intimacy of blogging.

Life is still going on for me. Rayne will be 9 months old this Saturday! NINE MONTHS! I can't believe it. This last month has felt huge. She's been rolling all over the place- I can barely get her diaper changed. And she scoots all over her grandma's kitchen on a slick floor in her walker. Her two teeth are adorable and I think she's trying for more. She "talks" and interacts with us A LOT. She's just awesome.

Jeff is still unemployed. He worked at a temp job last year at this time at the tax commission (where his mom works). He's hoping to do that again, being someone they know and liked and given that the people they hire first are people who are returning. BUT, his mom says they have a new program, are cutting the temp budget, and last she heard they are only taking on like 10 people for the season. Oh well.
At least our finances are doing better and we are now living at his grandma's, which is a lot more peaceful than where we were. We've been at his mom's for the last 2 weeks while they were out of town and while grandma gets her water heater replaced. His mom lives in Lake Point, which I think I've talked about before. It's too cold to take walks, but I quite like it out here.

I have been feeling more productive lately, mostly meaning I feel like I could or should be doing more, not that I'm actually doing anything. I keep thinking I'm going to have to find some work but when I think of it in terms of leaving my baby, I still don't think she or I am ready for that.

And as expected, this is scattered and I have to go... but it's a start :)

Me who?

I miss blogging. I barely get to my email now a days. :(

Beauty Marks

Yesterday, Grandma had a doctor show on t.v. as I was going back and forth with the baby. "Up next" was going to be a new method for getting rid of stretch marks that "really works." I was truly saddened by this.
As the preview said, I had stretch marks going through puberty that I hated. But gladly, they faded and I learned to accept myself etc.
Now I have stretch marks on my belly from having a baby and I honestly am proud of them. Not the kind of proud like wear a bikini and not care what people think proud. But proud that my body has accomplished something so miraculous and amazing and beautiful. Why get rid of that? Why hide it and be ashamed of it? It's a part of me- a physical sign of where I've been and what I've done.
I've never been so in love with and proud of my body as I am now.