Questions of the heart

I think it's time I should change the name of my blog... but since I don't know how, it shall remain. It still fits. My current thoughts, as usual, are in the realm of love- the romantical kind. So, let's set two scenarios...

A girl named Jane meets two nice fellas. Bill is a successful guy who, like Jane, wants to get married and have a family. He has a good job and would be happy to support a stay at home mom (an important thing to Jane). He is spiritually a good guy (and for those with differing opinions, let's just say it's important to Jane that she and her husband share religious beliefs and attend the same church, not just for her, but for the future children). Jane enjoys Bill, thinks he is cute, and likes being around him. There is nothing that she doesn't like, but alas, Jane is not smitten down with love that can't be helped.

Joe is the other guy that Jane has met. They seem to be unable to help their love for each other. Jane feels complete infatuation for Joe, but Joe is not very successful. Maybe he's a good, hard worker, but he doesn't have a strong education and will never make enough money to support a family on his own, leaving Jane, the more successful of the two, to have to work to help support the family. Furthermore, Joe already has children (and so an ex-wife) and doesn't know if he wants more. Also, Joe does not share Jane's religious convictions. He believes in the same God, but that's about as far as his faith goes.

Should Jane choose Bill or Joe? In the long run, who do you think Jane will be happier with? Can she learn to love Bill? Can she learn to not love Joe? Is logic or emotion more important in this sense?

P.S. No, I am not Jane. I don't know why this question keeps coming back to me in some form. Perhaps in a future blog, I will be more personal and y'all can be my therapist and help me figure myself out.

I've got a secret...

My question today is can you really love someone and have secrets from them? I'm not talking about keeping a journal that you don't want them to read, more just for the sake of letting your thoughts go than that you are keeping something from them. And I"m not talking about hiding an alternate lifestyle/personality. I just wonder if you can love someone enough to say you want to be with them forever but not tell them everything about you. It seems to me you couldn't. That if you truly wanted to share your existence with them, you would want and need them to understand even your sad and bad and ugly times- however in the past they might be. And, if you really expect them to love you, keeping something from them because you're afraid they won't want to love you in spite of it, isn't being truly honest.

Checking in (or out?)

I want to run away. To be somewhere calm and quiet where people can't depend on me for a day or two. Somewhere where the only person I have to answer to is me. I need some time with me. I'm searching for some clarity, motivation, perhaps change. Definitely looking for something stable. At least for a day or two.